BOOM

Most people are zombies, life is full of traps, I am full of angry EXPLOSIONS. I act like a zombie too when I don't do how I think or how I feel, when a corporate world makes me an inertive slave of fastfood and other people's desires. Think about yourself, mam. This is Freaky 13 right on the street. So the worst demons and bastards are stealing from the inside, when you are not aware of it. When you are just allowing it to happen.

"You have to realise that one day you will die. Until you know that, you are useless" (C) Chuck Palahniuk. Fight club

The Dust Brothers - This is your life. Original video taken from movie Fight club.

Ruines

I believe, beautiful art could save from endless sadness. From alienation created by ego behaviour. Art/creation distracts from continuos disappointment and brings new energy as much as caring about your home, yoga, intelligence improvement with books and researches made for better living with inner and outer worlds.

Sincere appreciation, gratitude are the only food that is acceptable for the heart. Only food needed for the heart goes from the other heart. 

Still pain can be a good base for masterpiece.

There is a huge insecurity for experienced ones to be opening again own world from inside out, and it's getting harder from month to month unless you meet someone who you can trust without scepticism. And the only path to be real to your friend is to uncover layers until you will get to the common nothing of sattva bliss.

 If you are lucky, once in a while you will get to absolute nudity and playful innocence, as much as it's possible amongst hypocritical walls. I wish we could be pure to each other.

Emily Wells performs her new song 'Passenger' live at the 2009 Calgary Folk Festival. 

Video downloaded byBamThwokCanada

this is where it goes

"Beyond all these is the possibility that civilization may be a huge technological success, but through methods the most people will find baffling, frightening, and disorienting - because, for one reason alone, the methods will keep changing. It may be like playing a game in which the rules are constantly changed without ever being made clear - a game from which one cannot withdraw without suicide, and in which one can never return to an older form of the game" (c) Alan Watts.


I would like you to see this movie about future made by Eran May-raz and Daniel Lazo as a graduation project form Bezaleal academy of arts.

original on vimeo

oh please go there for bliss

http://www.thenicestplaceontheinter.net/

The universe peoples

"We do not "come into" this world; we come out of it, as leaves from a tree. As the ocean "waves", the universe "peoples". Every individual is an expression of the whole realm of nature, a unique action of the total universe. This fact is rarely, if ever, experienced by most individuals. Even those who know it to be true in theory do not sence or feel it, but continue to be aware of themselves as isolated "egos" inside bags of skin" Alan Watts.

it's buddha time.

As Far as I Can Get

In the end of the last term at VFS I made a drawn story for our Writing 1 class.

It was supposed to show Beginning, Dilemma, Discovery and The end of the story. 

Some of drawings appear to be very rough.

Have some fun, 'cause I did drawing it for about 20 hours :)

Enjoy

Movies:

Ruby Sparks released in 2012.

Directors: Jonathan Dayton & Valerie Faris

On  official site you can have a fun time

Detachment, 2012

director Tony Kaye

Such a heart-braking story,

that I want to watch again & again

to purify my mind.

Also I liked

russiness / vse budet horosho

This is postcard from 70s. 

It's a town where I was born. Shevchenko, in Kazakhstan, that was still USSR republic in late 80s. Now it's called Aktau, and it's a huge turistical city. Too modern, I guess, but I haven't been there since my parents left this place. I was 3. 

Years during and after USSR fell apart was really hard for people to get food, especially for distant places like Shevchenko. There could be no food delivery for long, and when it finally appeared in the store, there always was a line - people could spend hours waiting for the most necessary products.

90s in Russia are often recalled by enormous amount of crime & danger.

I wrote 'everything will be alright' on it. Vse budet horosho

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About That Girl /third person camera/.

Here, now, if people ask you about me 'who is that girl?', they probably wouldn't have an idea what to say. Maybe they will answer: oh, she's that crazy russian.. And answer like that won't explain anything.

 

 (by dear friend Ivan Sakharof)